Weight Loss

Motivated by Money

Back in January when I was creating my list of resolutions, weight loss and an abundance of money were at the top of the list.  Somehow these two things have flipped.  I seem to have an over abundance of weight and my bank account balance looks like I have been robbed.

Recently, I was tooling around on Facebook, I saw an ad for Healthy Wage*.  People were winning money and lots of it for losing weight.  I normally scroll past these ads but I wanted to see what the hype was all about.  I found out that it is plan where you bet on yourself.  You put down a wager, set your goal weight, and set the date that you will achieve your goal.  If you hit your goal, you win money (and then some).  If you don’t hit it, you lose your money.  Those are the basics.

I wanted to give it try and I wanted to get paid for something I need to do.  I am betting $50 a month that I will be 50lbs lighter by February 21th.  If I hit this goal, my payout will be $1,231!!!  Oh what I could do with that money!!  I could buy new clothes, new running shoes, or lets be real, I will probably sink it into my son’s lacrosse goalie clinic or a new pair of skates.  Better health, smaller clothes, and the ability to run a block without throwing up just wasn’t enough to fire me up but cold hard cash peaked my interest.

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Whatever it takes, right?

I set my wager with an amount where I have skin in the game.  In total, I will have bet $350 and for me, that is a lot of money that I don’t want to lose!  I know I have set a realistic goal.  When this challenge is complete, I will still have additional weight to lose. I chose this to be my initial goal because it was a nice  number that would take me about two thirds of the way.

I paid my initial bet and had to submit a humiliating video where it showed my full profile at every angle as well as the number on the scale.  Truthfully, it was one of my top 10 most mortifying life events.  The website says they destroy the videos but somehow I think they provide good entertainment for the people that have to review them.

Fast forward…I am about 2 weeks in and I have GAINED 3 lbs.  Gah!  I jumped on the scale and I could swear it was mocking me.  Dammit.  I recorded my weight and the web app tells me I am “off track”.

The downside to Healthy Wage is that there is no plan on HOW to lose the weight.  That part is all on me to figure out.  Hence the gamble.  They do have a nice phone app that has your stats, the ability to chat with others, a leader’s board, and the ability to invite others.  It would be nice if it synced with other weight loss tracker apps but it does not as far as I can see.  I do like the web app interface a lot better and there seems to be more options.

I am hell bent on getting a pay out for losing some weight.  I am not going to let a little set back early on derail me.  I am in it to win it!  If you would like to join me, here is an invite code:  https://hwage.co/362984/

*I am not advertising for them.  They are not paying me to post this as I have no affiliated marketing as of this the date of the post.  (though maybe they should….Healthy Wage, if you are reading this, lets talk).

Weight Loss

I have a Thinking Problem

I recently switched careers.  I went from the accounting field to information technology. In my new role, I am a Business Analyst.  I did a lot of research and planning to make the transition.  After being lost a very long time, I FINALLY feel I have found a fit for my skill set and personality.  Truthfully, I am not very technical (or at all) and I always thought of my self more as the creative type rather than analytical.  But this role plays really well with my OCD tendencies.   Sometimes a little too well…

I was working on some new processes and showed them to my boss for feedback.  I put together elaborate slides with diagrams, comparisons, and outlined almost every given scenario based on all of the information I gathered.  My goal was to get sign off and birth a new process.  She appreciated the work that I did but called me out for overthinking for this specific type of project where a more iterative approach may be more applicable with some built in flexibility.

“Some things you can’t answer right away and some things need to evolve organically”.

Huh.

At first I was a smidge offended and wanted to fire back and say “ANALYST is my job title and I analyzed the shit of this!” I also wanted to trash all the work I did and start from scratch because all I was hearing was how my work was all wrong.

I didn’t argue and I didn’t trash my work.  I kept an open mind and listened.  Deep down I knew she was right and as much can constructive feedback sting, I like the lessons they provide.  Once my ego recovered, I realized overthinking and over planning can be bad as not planning enough.

That is when it really hit me.  I am like this with a lot of things in my everyday life.  I have a tendency to really beat the proverbial dead horse.

hang-on-let-me-overthink-this-ecardI overthink some of the smallest things like where to go for dinner or what I should pack on a vacation.  I get more in the weeds with the bigger decisions I need to make.  I made a damned flow chart to help me decide if I should sign my daughter up for traveling soccer in our home town or do recreational soccer in a neighboring city.  Don’t even get me started on what I did to map out preschool options for our children.  I have an ulcer for a reason.

Sometimes with my overthinking and over planning I get complete analysis paralysis and shut down.  I have a tendency to plan for perfection and when things don’t go off like I envision them, I chalk it up as a failure and quit.  In other words, I can be a complete shit show.

I can see that overthinking is my hurdle with health and weight loss.  It is a vicious cycle:  I decide to commit to work out certain number of times per week, eat in a certain way (paleo, keto, etc.), AND follow a training program to the letter.  There is no flexibility built in because I want to hit a goal by a certain date.

THEN…Someone brings cake to work or I forget my lunch or a friend wants to meet for drinks or schedules change or I am completely stressed out…

When things like this come up, my resolve is completely out the window.  I have the cake, I do the drinks, or I grab dinner on the fly because we are on the run.  Then all bets are off.  Since I go off the plan, I REALLY go off the plan.  The “start fresh tomorrow” mentality kicks in.  Then tomorrow comes and the cycle continues.

This is where my method fails me.  THIS is life and THESE are the situations where I need to have some built in flexibility.  I am now 75lb overweight and really need to re-evaluate how I am going about losing this weight.  Perhaps not planning every single detail is the better way to go. 

Wow.  I didn’t expect one informal conversation with my boss would be so enlightening.

What did I learn:

  • I have issues.
  • Overthinking and over planning don’t usually serve me well.
  • I am over thinking right now