Weight Loss

Motivated by Money

Back in January when I was creating my list of resolutions, weight loss and an abundance of money were at the top of the list.  Somehow these two things have flipped.  I seem to have an over abundance of weight and my bank account balance looks like I have been robbed.

Recently, I was tooling around on Facebook, I saw an ad for Healthy Wage*.  People were winning money and lots of it for losing weight.  I normally scroll past these ads but I wanted to see what the hype was all about.  I found out that it is plan where you bet on yourself.  You put down a wager, set your goal weight, and set the date that you will achieve your goal.  If you hit your goal, you win money (and then some).  If you don’t hit it, you lose your money.  Those are the basics.

I wanted to give it try and I wanted to get paid for something I need to do.  I am betting $50 a month that I will be 50lbs lighter by February 21th.  If I hit this goal, my payout will be $1,231!!!  Oh what I could do with that money!!  I could buy new clothes, new running shoes, or lets be real, I will probably sink it into my son’s lacrosse goalie clinic or a new pair of skates.  Better health, smaller clothes, and the ability to run a block without throwing up just wasn’t enough to fire me up but cold hard cash peaked my interest.

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Whatever it takes, right?

I set my wager with an amount where I have skin in the game.  In total, I will have bet $350 and for me, that is a lot of money that I don’t want to lose!  I know I have set a realistic goal.  When this challenge is complete, I will still have additional weight to lose. I chose this to be my initial goal because it was a nice  number that would take me about two thirds of the way.

I paid my initial bet and had to submit a humiliating video where it showed my full profile at every angle as well as the number on the scale.  Truthfully, it was one of my top 10 most mortifying life events.  The website says they destroy the videos but somehow I think they provide good entertainment for the people that have to review them.

Fast forward…I am about 2 weeks in and I have GAINED 3 lbs.  Gah!  I jumped on the scale and I could swear it was mocking me.  Dammit.  I recorded my weight and the web app tells me I am “off track”.

The downside to Healthy Wage is that there is no plan on HOW to lose the weight.  That part is all on me to figure out.  Hence the gamble.  They do have a nice phone app that has your stats, the ability to chat with others, a leader’s board, and the ability to invite others.  It would be nice if it synced with other weight loss tracker apps but it does not as far as I can see.  I do like the web app interface a lot better and there seems to be more options.

I am hell bent on getting a pay out for losing some weight.  I am not going to let a little set back early on derail me.  I am in it to win it!  If you would like to join me, here is an invite code:  https://hwage.co/362984/

*I am not advertising for them.  They are not paying me to post this as I have no affiliated marketing as of this the date of the post.  (though maybe they should….Healthy Wage, if you are reading this, lets talk).

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August Goals

It is that time again to set the goals for the month.  August is always such an awesome month but it is bittersweet because you can start feeling a twinge of Fall. We have so many fun activities planned over the course of the next 31 days.  We have a family reunion, Birthday Mania (all three of my kids were born in August within 13 days of each other-BAM!), Kid Rock Concert (I am a huge fan), a girls weekend, and the Minnesota State Fair.

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My goals for August:

  1. Lose 10lbs.  While I know that might not exactly be realistic and a tad aggressive, I need to get the scale going in the right direction.  Birthdays, travel, and food on a stick are not exactly a good recipe for my weight loss. I am smart enough to know all things in moderation but cake and fried foods are my kryptonite.  If I set an aggressive goal, I might (MIGHT) be able to control myself a bit especially if I am posting this goal for the world to read.  I will be tracking my intake on My Fitness Pal and I have signed up for Healthy Wage (more on that in a different post).
  2. Run an entire mile.  I know I covered 13.1 not that long ago but I could not run a mile at gun point.  One of my 2018 goals is to find my way back to running.  I know a mile isn’t much but I get winded walking to my car at this point.  Baby steps.  I plan on using the Couch to 5K program to get me on my way.
  3. Pack lunches.  In an effort to tighten the fiscal belt, I am going to pack my lunch for work.  I am spending way too much money because I am too lazy to throw a few items in a paper bag.  I find it obnoxious that a basic salad can cost $12 when I can make 5 meals for that amount of money.  Plus I will be supporting goal #1.

Now that they are published I am going to feel like a fool if I don’t get after it!

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I have a Thinking Problem

I recently switched careers.  I went from the accounting field to information technology. In my new role, I am a Business Analyst.  I did a lot of research and planning to make the transition.  After being lost a very long time, I FINALLY feel I have found a fit for my skill set and personality.  Truthfully, I am not very technical (or at all) and I always thought of my self more as the creative type rather than analytical.  But this role plays really well with my OCD tendencies.   Sometimes a little too well…

I was working on some new processes and showed them to my boss for feedback.  I put together elaborate slides with diagrams, comparisons, and outlined almost every given scenario based on all of the information I gathered.  My goal was to get sign off and birth a new process.  She appreciated the work that I did but called me out for overthinking for this specific type of project where a more iterative approach may be more applicable with some built in flexibility.

“Some things you can’t answer right away and some things need to evolve organically”.

Huh.

At first I was a smidge offended and wanted to fire back and say “ANALYST is my job title and I analyzed the shit of this!” I also wanted to trash all the work I did and start from scratch because all I was hearing was how my work was all wrong.

I didn’t argue and I didn’t trash my work.  I kept an open mind and listened.  Deep down I knew she was right and as much can constructive feedback sting, I like the lessons they provide.  Once my ego recovered, I realized overthinking and over planning can be bad as not planning enough.

That is when it really hit me.  I am like this with a lot of things in my everyday life.  I have a tendency to really beat the proverbial dead horse.

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Sometimes with my overthinking and over planning I get complete analysis paralysis and shut down.  I have a tendency to plan for perfection and when things don’t go off like I envision them, I chalk it up as a failure and quit.  In other words, I can be a complete shit show.

I can see that overthinking is my hurdle with health and weight loss.  It is a vicious cycle:  I decide to commit to work out certain number of times per week, eat in a certain way (paleo, keto, etc.), AND follow a training program to the letter.  There is no flexibility built in because I want to hit a goal by a certain date.

THEN…Someone brings cake to work or I forget my lunch or a friend wants to meet for drinks or schedules change or I am completely stressed out…

When things like this come up, my resolve is completely out the window.  I have the cake, I do the drinks, or I grab dinner on the fly because we are on the run.  Then all bets are off.  Since I go off the plan, I REALLY go off the plan.  The “start fresh tomorrow” mentality kicks in.  Then tomorrow comes and the cycle continues.

This is where my method fails me.  THIS is life and THESE are the situations where I need to have some built in flexibility.  I am now 75lb overweight and really need to re-evaluate how I am going about losing this weight.  Perhaps not planning every single detail is the better way to go. 

Wow.  I didn’t expect one informal conversation with my boss would be so enlightening.

What did I learn:

  • I have issues.
  • Overthinking and over planning don’t usually serve me well.
  • I am over thinking right now

 

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Return of the Give-a-Damn

I have not been very good about consistently writing blog posts.  My goal for this blog was to have a place to write about my journey to better health and fitness while juggling life.  I haven’t been consistent because I haven’t been focused on my health, my weight, or my fitness.  At all.

Several months ago, I noticed my bathroom scale was broken.  I pitched it and decided that I was going to be more than a number.  I worked out and ate decent* so the scale was pointless in my mind

*No I didn’t. 

Out of curiosity, I stepped on the scale at my parents house and I was shocked at the number staring back at me. It showed me weighing the heaviest I have ever been as an adult.  Thinking this number had to be wrong, I ordered my own scale.  To my horror, it read the same number as the scale at my parents house. Unfortunately, with this new knowledge, I had to stop blaming my daughter for shrinking my clothes in the dryer and accept my current reality that I have a bit of a weight problem.

The reality is I don’t eat well at all.  I eat a lot of crappy fast food because I don’t pack a lunch, I eat a lot of sugar, I partake in adult beverages more than I should, and I certainly do not work out as much as I think I do.  I am stress eater and I have been feeling the pressure lately.  Taking an honest assessment and a good hard look at myself was tough

I did a bit of research on the web and found that healthy range for my height is 122-164 lbs. according to the CDC. My current BMI is 35 or that is what the online calculator told me (OUCH!).  I have approximately 60-75lbs to lose to be on the higher end of that range.  I see this as a guideline and I would be happy even if I was over that range a bit.   The photo below was at my lowest weight as an adult and above the CDC guideline.  I am going to shoot for that to be my goal.  I felt good at that weight and thought I looked healthy.

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  • I want to get into a healthy weight range and not be in the Obese BMI Category
  • I want to feel better and get some nagging health issues under control
  • I want to look better (and wear smaller clothes that don’t come from the plus size section).

This is my long way of saying, my give a damn is back and it starts NOW (Well tomorrow….I always start on a Monday).  Welcome to my journey!

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Garry Bjorklund Half Marathon Race Report

Rewind time to October 2017.  I just finished the Loony Challenge and completed the 10 mile portion of the race when I uttered the words “This is my last race ever”.  It wasn’t 2 hours later and my evil and awesome friends had different plans for me.  The Garry Bjorklund Half Marathon in Duluth was having an open registration for the first time ever!  Which meant no random lottery to select participants.  This race has historically been one of the hardest races I have tried to get into.  I have been rejected several times because my name was never randomly drawn.  As appealing as it was to jump on board, I still was not sold.  Meanwhile, my friends were all ready to hit the confirm payment button and they were bullying urging me to sign up with them.

I knew I would not have ample time to train.  Committing to extra scheduling during hockey season is just plain stupid.  Plus I really hate running on the snow and ice.  I also knew that this race would fill up in a matter of minutes so I had to make a quick decision.  Knowing myself, I would feel really bad if my friends were all doing the race and I wasn’t.  So I caved to my bully friends and signed up.

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Eight months later, I found myself toeing the line of the half marathon start.  I felt sick for what was about to happen.  I quite literally had to find my running shoes that had not been worn since October and I had to buy a new charger for my Garmin that was stashed in a drawer.  In other words, I did not run one single mile to prepare for this race.  It was going to be PAINFUL.  The gun went off and I started to move.

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Pre-Race Selfie with the crew and a photo bomber!

Miles 1-8:  I actually felt okay.  I ran the first half mile then when 2 minutes of running and one minute of walking…unless there was an uphill (there were a few) or if there was a water stop (lots of them too).  I even ran into a few people I knew on the course after my friends left me in the dust.

Miles 9-11:  My back and my legs started cramping.  My foot starting feeling pain and I cursed the fact I was wearing 3 year old shoes that died a long time ago.  I cursed myself for signing up.  I cursed myself for not training.  I really was praying for the race to be over.  I knew quitting wasn’t an option because I would never live it down from my husband.  I didn’t want to hear the words “I told you so” come out of his smug mouth.

Miles 12-13:  I was too far in to drop out even though I was completely over the run.  The route that I knew from past experience was redirected into the bowels of Duluth.  It was a steep downhill on concrete with a steep uphill to get out of it.  My finish line song came on prematurely and I chose to keep hitting the back button so I would have it handy when I crossed that finish line.  In case you are wondering, my finish line song is American Bad Ass by Kid Rock.

Final .1 Mile:  I truly gave it all I had.  I had nothing more and crossed the finish line on jelly legs, sore foot/ankle, and every muscle in my body screaming and seizing up on me.  I finished the race to the lyrics of American Badass “I know it stinks in here, because I’m the shit”.  I could not agree more!  The moment I stepped on the final timing sensor, I saw a text come through on my watch from my husband congratulating me.

Final time:  3:01:45.  Not my worst and it was far from my best.

What did I learn from this experience:

  •  You CAN run a half marathon with zero training.
  • I do NOT recommend running a half marathon with zero training.  Respect the distance, respect your body.
  • Marathon photographers really get flattering photos.  These photos are both horrifying and hilarious.

 

 

I would like to say this is my last race but it was so much miserable fun that I know I will do it again.  I will leave with my famous last words…

“Next time, I WILL train”

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June Goals

I have started 43 different blog posts since my last one in MARCH and have not finished ONE of them!!  I was hoping to have a little consistency with my writing but sometimes life and the real job that pays me tells me my priorities are a bit different.

I miss my blogging days when I used to write my blog titled Chubby Chicks Run Too. I really would like to get back into some consistency.  There is something about writing about your life and posting it for the world to read that keep things honest and provides a little accountability.  Even if no one reads it, my words are still out there!

In order to get back to the space of accountability and honesty, I have listed my June goals below.junegoals

Fitness:

I will go to my boot camp class 14 times.  The class count would be higher for the month but we are out of town several days in June.  This class is more than just a calorie burn, it is my 5:30AM therapy session with a great group of people.  Last month I needed to get into the habit of getting up at before the birds and while that part wasn’t fun, the interactions with this group was worth every minute.  We laugh, we bitch, we smack talk and then we go about our day while the world is still sleeping.  Getting up at this time is still very much a challenge for me because I never feel like I am getting enough sleep and I use it as an excuse not to go.

Half Marathon:

I will complete the Garry Bjorklund Half Marathon despite not running a single mile since the last October.  I have this really bad practice of signing up for long races and then never training for them.  I always finish and it is always painful.  The sad part is that I never learn my lesson and do it again with the intent to train but the cycle continues.  I am not proud of my finishing times but I am proud of my mental resolve to get me though.   I am going conquer the course by running the first mile if I can (slowly) then transition to a run/walk interval that has not been determined yet.

Gluten Free:

This should be a no brainer for me since I am allergic to wheat and my doctor told me “Do NOT eat Gluten”.  I don’t have a problem with this plan until someone brings donuts or I am confronted with a juicy burger on a soft real bun or I am really craving a cold beer on a hot day.  They are my kryptonite and I have zero self control despite the painful and sometimes embarrassing consequences.  My plan is to just not eat it.

So there they are, my goals for June out in the in the world and my first blog post in a very long time.

 

 

 

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Weekend Wrap-Up

It was a pretty chill weekend in our house.  It was one of those weekends rarely comes around where there isn’t much on the calendar.  Friday night, I got my hair cut.  Saturday, my daughter had hockey practice.  Sunday, I didn’t get out of my sweat pants.  It was the perfect weekend to attack my very long and neglected to-do list. What I should have done and what I actually did were on opposite ends of the spectrum.  While I wasn’t a complete sloth, my to-do list was still pretty neglected.

 

I did take manage to take advantage of a nice MN Spring day and go for a run with my daughter.  I am using the term run very loosely.  It was more of a 3 mile walk with 5 bursts of running.  Let me define “bursts of running”, it was a minute or two of slow, pain full running.  It was tough.  This body has gotten big over the last few years and moving it requires a lot of effort.  I survived but it kicked my butt.  Evidently, I am too slow for my daughter.  She took off without me.

I have some big plans this spring and summer that is going to require me to dust off the running shoes.  My motivation is starting to come back as the snow goes away.  I may have to keep bringing my daughter because she was a good coach.

One thing I didn’t do and I am now regretting it is playing hockey.  Our team won the state championship!!!  I marked myself as unavailable since we had kid commitments.  But when the calendar cleared, I never changed to be available as I thought it might be nice not to be over-scheduled.  I think I still made the right choice, but I sure missed playing and so wish I could have celebrated with the team.  I vowed that next year I will be a full-time player again.

Even though I didn’t get much done it was still I good weekend chill.  I am not sure when I’ll get the opportunity to laze around again for awhile!